Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Thank You
I want to thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. We dropped David off this morning and I didn't want him or my children to see me break down. I haven't had a moment yet to absorb my emotions but I don't know how long I can keep strong. My heart is breaking and I don't know how to handle this. I want to curl in a ball and cry until I have no more tears to shed. I want my husband here with me! I want to see his face when I wake in the morning, I want to feel his hands touch my face and kiss my forehead. I know it will get better. I have to stay strong for David and our boys. My goodness this is hard.
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Yes it is very, very hard. It has been a week for us. You will feel a little better when you hear from him and see that he is doing well. It is hard I gotta tell ya. Whatever you do don't curl up in the ball adn cry stand in the shower, pretend you have to go to the bathroom and cry. I don't know how old your children are but stay strong for them. It is hard and it will get better I'm sure. I think you become numb like I am right now but that is better than feeling like your feeling now. I'm not the best one to give advice but these other ladies are wonderful support. Soon you and I will be like them and be as strong as them because they have been where we are now and it will help. Take Care honey.
Susan, I still feel like you described once in a while. Not as often. It has been almost 4 months for us. You will begin to settle in to your new routines, and your children will be your partners for now. They are you saving grace. Understand that your husband will feel worse for you than he does for himself. Once he sees you growing strong you both will feel better. Pray a lot, and lean on God. This too shall pass for all of us, and we will have joy unspeakable again. God bless you & yours, Becky
Susan,
I have been doing this since April. Just when I think I got a handle on it, I don't and all the emotions come flooding back. You have to find a "new norm" for awhile. I still have sleepless nights, not every night like at first, but they still happen. Usually just when I think I have adjusted. Then when I am doing "okay" one of the kids will have a melt down. Your little one should be okay, it is the eight year old that will have the hardest time. Mine has started every morning the first thing she says is I want Daddy home. All you can say is we all do. Remember you are not alone, we are all here and all feel the same things you are feeling. We are planning a fathers day trip there with all the kids. Kim H. is co-ordinating it. It has become a tradition. It is great for the kids to be able to spend the down time with other kids in the same situation. Good for the mom's too. So watch for the details. I am sure there will be visits between now and then. But as far as a group that is the one weekend we are trying to plan as many of us as possible being there together. You will be oaky. Call if you need to.
Susan,
Just as the other ladies have said, things will get better for you. Chance & I have been apart nearly 2 1/2 yrs. and I still have days when all I want to do is ball up and cry. You will have good days and bad days, just try to keep yourself and the children occupied. I dont stay home often ,I keep busy so that I dont have much time to think and then I am so wore out that it's not too often I have a sleepless night. Please call or email if you ever want to talk or have any questions. We are all here!
Susan I talked with Sam tonight and he talked with David for a long time today. He said he is doing well. They all have each other in their so that helps. The only one my husband hasn't seen face to face is Mike but they have shared messages. I need to tell on Mike for not coming to Mass on Sunday. LeeAnn if your reading this I forgot to tell on him or did I tell you and that and forgot about it. Who knows I am really crazy loosing my mind.
I do have good news I got a massage today and my insurance is paying for it. I have had such stress and hurting in my back so I go ta prescription today for massages. Finally something good.
Kim, please ask Sam to get Brandon to go to Mass with him. (But don't tell him I said so!!!). Thanks, Carole
I tourture Mike about Mass every chance I get now. He was really good when he first got there about attending mass. When he first got there, there was an issue with the priest also being a CO. Which a call from a concerned loved one (Wonder who that could have been) ***WINK*** to Deacon John fixed that, within a couple of weeks the guy was transfered by the diocese. They started having local priests go in and celebrate mass and Deacon John does Faith Formation on Tuesdays at 2.
I have been doing this since April of this year as well...Some days are great..other days not..but no matter what..this will soon be over and they will be home with us..Cry when you need to, but then blow your nose, square your shoulders and keep on trucking...((HUGS))
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